Saturday, February 28, 2009

yesterdays medical check up can be labelled as disaster.
ughh.
like the first thing i went in,
wtf do i do.

so yeah.
its kind of a standard procedure that people take number.
at first i couldnt find it,
eventually i did because it as a teenee tiny piece of paper.

then when it was my turn,
the first thing she asked was which poly im in.
and i said tp.
then she say tp come back on thursday for result.
then i like huh.
then she say 'yes come back. come in through this door then through that one, walk straight and wait'
then i ask her, means i have to come back again on thursday.
then she said ya.
THEN, THE NEXT THING, I GOT UP
AND SHE ASK WHERE I GOING
i said going home luh
THEN SHE SAY WAIT,
THURDAY IS RESULT
then i ask so now i give ic
THEN SHE SAY SO LOUD
YES NOW GIVE IC $25 AND FORM

i dont dare look behind me,
confirm all staring at me already.
i can feel their glare.

and then the urine test thingy.
disgusting
after urine was height and weight,
and that was when i saw someone famaliar.
but i dont think he knows me.

then queing up for blood pressure was dam long.
and the worse shit is,
the nurse say 'lai girl sit'
THEN I SAY LOUDLY
HUH GIRL.
then she say, eh sorry boy.
-_-

thats not all.
the part where i have to take x ray.
first thing they ask is,
when was your last menses.
haiz.
and the x ray thing was dam high,
and i had to balance on my chin.

ugghh.
worse shit ever.
i was too tired after that.
so i didnt meet them for badminton.

tmr religious classes again.
should i?
haha

Jamal Rad at 10:36 PM

Thursday, February 26, 2009

ughh.
this enrollment thingy is such a chore.
i just started on it today,
and its just half done.

and whats worse,
i cant find some of the required documents.

tmrs a busy day.
i will have to take picture, photocopy some shiets and go over to sata for check up.
my mother keep nagging to do it quick,
but then she doesnt help.

then suddenly,
my father asks me to cut my hair.
NO WAY!

Jamal Rad at 10:54 PM

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

if i could,
i would,
and i know i should.
=/

im really in discomfort,
and thinking why i was so selfish.
ughh.

im so tired,
i cant dota.
maybe a game will do.

Jamal Rad at 12:37 AM

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

apparently i feel so guilty of last time,
how much of a shitbag i was.
i dont think i will wanna go out later..

oh well,
the past has past.
just hope the future is much bettr

Jamal Rad at 4:21 AM

gaaaaaaasp.
she asked me out.
i'd have to say noooo
haha.

i wanna upload pics but my m2 adapter since to be misplaced.
so, you'll have to take it then send me.
ok?

Jamal Rad at 12:11 AM

Monday, February 23, 2009

suddenly i kept thinking,
what kind of people i will meet in poly.
and how many of them i'll get to know.
and this,
and that.

and then i think about orientation,
like will it be as lame as our sec1.
i hope not.

apparently now i figured,
that what i think,
may not be known by people,
or thats what i think.
but actually they knew.
so if yr thinkin like me,
means that i know.
that people are trying to keep things from me.

Jamal Rad at 9:37 PM

Sunday, February 22, 2009

lol.
another week gone.

and, im the last to post this,
yest went lan and..
worse shiet ever.
but at least,
i got the guys number right?
-_-

and yesterday i go full just by eating 2 donuts, a bar of chocolate, some chips and a pack of vitasoy.
ughh.
i gotta watch that diet.

today,
a great beautiful sunday.
i had a good start.
and so i got the mood to go for religious class.
then everyone just stared at me,
when i stepped in,
because its like my second time going out of,
about 8 lessons this yr.
so i look kind of,
unfamaliar maybe..
of just plain hot,
that they cant get their eyes off me.
LOL!

apparently i just used my last cent yesterday.
so now its back to staying-at-home-till-i-get-the-cash.

currently i have lotsa problems at home.
i just found out my brother drinks.
wtfs happening man..
and then he tells me he cant pray.

speaking of shows, im starting to love the tv these days.
i dont mind the adverts.
i just love the shows.
but when i try to find it online,
ughh. just dissappoints me.
and then the next thing i do is dota.
lol.

and now im eating oreos with mango juice.
darn.
i should think twice before i eat.
where have i heard that before..

so yeah.
and i have to go for check up someday.
for the enrollment thingy.
anyone wanna come with?

Jamal Rad at 9:38 PM

Friday, February 20, 2009

knowing the truth,
is most heartbreaking.
not knowing why,
is even worse..

Jamal Rad at 9:22 PM

ughh.
my actual plan was to go lan but,
i had to go prayers just now.
i told my mother i was going to the mosque at pasir ris,
and my brother had to hear it.
and then he told me to follow him,
as he was taking a taxi there.

so yeah.
each time i hear the speech it just make me want to..
change.
like, at least dedicate 1hr per week just to go to the mosque.

and currently now,
someone just made me have a low,
a very low confidence in living life.
=/

so i dont think i'll go out tmr.
thanks hnf for telling.

Jamal Rad at 2:29 PM

sedih luh.
emosi mengisiku.
mengapa bergini?

Jamal Rad at 1:32 AM

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

boleh tahan uh.
tapi tgk sebelah,
eww.
haha

sedihnye lah eh
mcm nak muntah sio
tgk krg

ampuni aku
dari segala dosa dosaku
ampuni aku
bernangis ku bertaubat padamu.

Jamal Rad at 10:03 PM

apparently things aren't so beautiful.
especially with my sister.

everyday the minute she gets back my parents will ask about her school.
and will demand a hard copy of what she did.

this is simply because of her,
wanting to be miss popularity in school.
and getting call every night,
till late at night.
and having high bills at the end of each month.

it had been going on for quite sometime.
until a few days back,
where my father got possesion of her phone,
and read all of the messages there.
and of course, if i were her, i'd get really upset because its privacy.
but, she's just 12.
and she wants bf's everywhere.
in school, religious classes, online.
and one doesnt seems to be enough.

oh well.
and then once at the dining table,
my father discussed about it.
and said openly that
if he'd ever see her together with a guy,
if she doesnt die, the guy will die.

and then the worse thing next is,
my father told me to observe her,
and ensure that she gets back home early everyday.

and i was like,
oh shit.
im in kamran's shoes.
the next thing i have to do is
sms everyone telling i cant go out,
must take care of sister.
ughh

anw.
last friday i got an unexpected message,
from an unexpected someone,
and met in an unexpected place.
went to lan again,
and poor kamran had to apologise a lot to the people playing soccer.

and on saturday went for yul's chalet.
haha.
dam funny.
i had to wait for faris dam long.
his mother told me it took him 2hours to make his hair.
-_-
so we took a bus to changi.
a stop after we were suppose to.
and we didnt know where to go.
and we dont even know what block was it at first.
so we walk round and round.
an after awhile,
we got to know the block letter,
and surprisingly,
it was actually right bside the bus stop.

ah watvr.
the chalet was big uh.
and while inside one of the rooms,
wenqiang and farhan was lying down,
and suddenly faris jumped on top of them.
and, thats when the whole pile up began
bryan was next,
and then me.
and i dunno who else.
and with one jerk..
crash~
and the funny thing was,
everyone ran.
and wenqiang was one the floor,
with farhan.
haha

and then yesterday went lan again.
im bored of left4dead yesterday.
and also in mid game,
i fought with hanafi.
lol
its just a game,
no need to be so serious.
-_-
we finished all the campaign,
and ready for versus.
apparently some other people dont wanna.
hmmm.
still noob?

i got home after that,
and like,
i dont know why i got so tired.
and at night at mac again.

phew.
so most likely im gonna spend the rest of the week at home.
oh ya.
support happy hearts.
20bucks/tee.
cheap eh.

and my tagboards gone.
apparently..
=/

oh well,
back to gaming.

O

Jamal Rad at 2:01 PM

O
i got a whole list to blog about.
hmm,
i should start by organising them first.

Jamal Rad at 12:23 AM

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

the mood to blog
has gone yet again.
i will then it comes back.
haha

Jamal Rad at 12:33 PM

Friday, February 6, 2009

omfg,
i think something followed me from yesterday's walk.

now that to mention it,
when i got home suddenly my brother at the living room switch on the lights.
and then he went over the his friends house.

today,
my mother just asked me which route i took.
and then she told me that my brother suddenly heard stuffs,
and got scared and ran over,
to his friends house luh.

=/
is it gonna happen again?

Jamal Rad at 7:01 PM

so now yr screamin at the top of yr lungs,
hoping for someone to come.

actually,
i got kind of alot to blog about.
but im not sure if its pretty much relevant or not.
so, start with yesterday.

the last post was short because i didnt use my laptop.
so i made it a quick one.
yesterday went to mac, as usual.
and i actually walked from pasir ris,
from my home, to 201 mac.
and i took like, 1hr 15min.
and when i reached there,
my legs like jelly.

the journey there was scary uh.
i got some encounters,
but i dont wish to tell it.
one of them was at the highway bridge near faris house.
i walking then suddenly i felt something.
i was scared to run uh.
cuz i fear the wind might blow me away.
and then id fall to the highway and got bang by cars.
and the worse thing is,
id die a virgin.
so i just walked and prayed.

anyway,
after playing mafia and 24 there,
luckily i got money take bus.

and then today,
oh.
first the reason why i cant take bus because i dont have an ezlink.
andd then i have to use my mothers.
so, she doesnt want to top it up because she scared,
since its the old card, later it will expire and then the value will be gone.
so, i had to go change it.
and i told her i go to the bus interchange to change it.
but she die die say its at the post office.
so i went to the tamp one,
and then i waited like 45min standing there.
and when i went to take bus 81 at interchange,
and saw the counter,
empty.
ugh.

oh,
and just when i said i didnt see jason for a long time,
i saw him just now.
haha
he going gym sia.
so how many treadmills did you break?
=D

and then as in the bus i saw fadli e6.
and i recalled the sec1 days uh.
how much i bullied him.
haha.
i feel bad, seriously.
then just now, like i can see he saw me but didnt wanna talk to me.
so when i got down,
i called out to him,
and asked if he forgot me.
-.-
and i found out hes going to tp too.
woo
someone to bully.

oh ya.
i found out something uh.
people are different when you look them face to face,
and chatting with them on msn.

like for example,
farhan is sooo gentle at msn,
but like so rough in front of me.
=/
thats why i had to take advantage of our conversations.
haha

and most obvious is hnf uh.
in reality,
he cant do anythin.
hahaha.
but then,
in game later scold scold all.
kpkb all come out.
then suddenly,
'ughh, i feel like suiciding.'
=P

so yeah,
imma happy guy.
why be emo.
right hnf?

off to mac~
bye.

padehal dier tak lawa seh.

Jamal Rad at 3:46 PM

because these word were never easy for me to say.
or her to second guess,
but i guess,
that i cant live without you but,
without you ill be _

oh well..
at least.

Jamal Rad at 1:47 AM

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

yawn.
i mean, helo.
im blogging again because apparently,
i cant sleep.
haha.

i feel sad uh.
i changed a lot.
i dont know for the better or the worse.

like last year, i used to loveee poems.
like i'd write down, around my books.
and my table too.
haha

but now,
i cant even think of one
and like i used to be soo hyper.
talk about this and that but now,
i prefer to be quiet?
oh gosh, what happening.

anw,
my mother just told me i used to come home and cry everyday,
saying a girl kept bullying me in class.
actually she didnt bully,
i just didnt wanna lend her my colour pencil.
but eventually i did and i didnt like it.
haha

so yeah.
imma gonna pass time.
what should i do..
hmm..

Jamal Rad at 11:03 PM

world peace people.
make love, not war.

no fights uh sia.
girls fighting over me can lah,
but you guys fighting each other?
nonono.

and to someone,sedar diri sikit eh
yeah i'd like to say to someone,





hiee. hahaa

Jamal Rad at 9:13 PM

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

so do you pronounce the name 'Gina' like,
Gina.
or,
gina,
or like,
giina,
or or or,
GiNa,
OR,
gina, with 2 stars in front,
as in **gina.
hahaha

Jamal Rad at 10:05 PM

oh gosh.
i wanted to go out today but then i forgot my ezlink was out of value.
and im waiting for my mother to top it up,
before i can go out uh.

so the usual day today.
only today,
i have something to say.






















yawn.

Jamal Rad at 9:47 PM

Sunday, February 1, 2009

nah.
im not the attention seeker.
i think you are..
you literally cry for attention.
lol.

imma start linking people.

Jamal Rad at 10:17 PM

yayay.
time for me to blogg.
haha.
due to the daily busy-ness,
i didnt have even the slightest time to blog,
because, as you can see,
i have a tight schedule.
haha.

so, start off from last wednesday.
cny celebration in school,
but, i was kind of late so i didnt join them.
and instead, had a date with lutfi to go all the way to toapayoh for a job.
my previous job actually,
since we're so desperate.
otw there, at tamp platform, i met mr on yong xiang.
which, like, felt years since i last saw him.
and then he said he was waiting for a few of the others,
so i waited with him uh.

then along came bryan wenqiang and some other ppl uh.
i forgot who.
so took together with them all the way to cityhall,
where we split as they we're off to tanjongpagar,
while we're going to toapayoh.

and when we reached there,
i see some familiar fuckfaces.
the ones i hate we're on the list of employee of the month.
-_-
oh well, they gt no life but to scold small people.
how pretty,
see how you get scolded by me uh.

and then me and lutfi got back to tamp by bus.
it wasnt that long.
45mins.
not long right?
=D

and to mac, where we saw hafir and faris,
the faris-voice-funny one.
haha.
and we were there till night uh.
at mrtehtarik.
playing murderer and 24.
haha.
i had a good time disturbing faris.
ok lah,
i'll stop.

then on friday as usual,
skipped prayers and went over to lan shop with hnf!
haha.
he got angryyy because he lost to meeeee
lol.
nvm luh hnf,
try harder.
=P

and at night went over to qom's fren's chalet.
and this hnf ccb.
dont even know where's downtown.
i had to go all the way to tamp 201 to fetch him,
and back.
if girl can uh,
but for a fuglyguy.. haha.

then met up with qom bryan and kamran.
and followed them to the chalet uh.
where i met a few new people,
and some familiars.

and this hnf..
hahaha.
he got harassed by this 'hot' girl.
eww.

at first everyone was strangers to me,
but then after that trip to the red house as a big group,
i guess i can call them friends.
haha.
actually i cant even remember some of their names.
because i didnt make a good proper introduction.
oh well.

after that trip i went back to take a short nap.
oh, i didnt sleep with a girl lah.
it was just side by side.
-.-
i would never sleep with a girl.
=P

then the fear of having to go bck home came.
but, who cares.
lol
lucky for me, my mother called at 6am.
and after everything,
we went off at 7.

oh, and this hnf.
wtf sia.
new crush?
what happened to loyalty?
guys these days..
-.-

oh ya.
good luck to jc ppl tmr.
and, dont ask about my posting.
i got into tp but,
i got the worse course ever.
oh well.

so yeah, longlong post.
i wanna sleep early today.
nites~

i slept with the girl you're in love with~ lalala

Jamal Rad at 8:00 PM