Sunday, October 21, 2007

this is for you
you and only you
you who changed my dearly
you who control my feelings

we got off on a real bad start
but you managed to change it into chance
a chance, which is opportunity for me
to change, and not make you accept just for the sake of sympathy

maybe all this while you did this for sympathy
then again, i don't feel that way
i trust that you're doing it
because you want to

we went through lots of events
good and bad
most of them are bad
but are overcame by the good ones

promise is another issue
when you promise somethin
at the same time you will swear that you will never ever forget it
well, it seems like you have

try to recall how many times this particular someone asked you out
and each time he ask will be followed by rejection
and each time rejection occurs, part of that someone's heart cracks off
but he just hides it off, blaming himself

and then you promise that someone
that you will repay it back
after a major incident
but...no

first was when that someone asked you out
you rejected it, saying you're lazy
but then, he found out that you were out with your 'better' friends

a big part of his heart cracked
but he slowly glued it back
himself
with the help of some friends

then came the time when that someone asks you to go for luch outside right after school
but you rejected him, saying you fear for maybe you were the only female around
so he quite understands
and kept his real feelings inside

but soon after, he found out that you had lunch with some of your 'better' friends
all guys and you were the only female there
he kept his berserkness
and calmed himself down

another part cracked
this time he really cant fix it
so he let it be

and then now
even after that major incident which u left a promise
you still reject him
where has this...'promise' gone to?

are promises meant to be broken?
or maybe you just wanted to cheer me up?
or maybe, you're just using me yo cover for something else
maybe you are doing this on purpose
as part of your plan
maybe i'm not fit to be yours
maybe i don't deserve you
or maybe, you just simply hate me

and so, i hoped you enjoyed the times we had
i promise, it will not be put to waste
i will not let it rot as a memory
i will make full use of it
i will forever think of you in my mind
why am i saying this?
because this, could be...
goodbye

nobody likes to wait...nobody
except for those who have a strong love for someone
which will make him do almost anything
to get even the slightest attention
and for her to sit down, and think
about what he has done
for her

Jamal Rad at 10:59 PM